Ultimate Potion - Vacation Days, pt 9

Saturday, March 24th

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From Ryan's personal journal entry:

Good morning, or at least I think it's morning.  Yes, as you can see, I'm
perfectly normal at the moment, at least as normal as can be defined by whatever
passes for such in reality.  Although I have to admit, reality has been getting
seriously warped and twisted lately.  Whether that's because of the potion,
Caroline's enthusiasm towards transformations, or my own sense of self shifting
from the changes has yet to be determined.

If you looked outside, you'd see the world blotted out by the snow.  It's still
falling, not quite as heavy as yesterday but the winds are still howling
outside, making whatever has fallen form into massive drifts.  It's going to
either take a sudden warming or a lot of manual labor to clear the road enough
to get out of here, but we've got plenty of time, and thankfully plenty of food
to last a few more days.

Speaking of drifting, my mind's been drifting rather hard of late.  Yesterday's
fun with Caroline is a good example, considering that at one point there were
four versions of me and four versions of her, and the entire group going at it
like crazed minks.  And it was definitely crazy, I'm still trying to recover and
center myself from the experiences, both mental and physical.

The physical, well, experiencing what it's like being female was rather mind-
blowing.  I've always had an inkling of what it was like from past experiences,
but those inklings were mere wisps compared to the actual physical feeling.  To
say that it was educational would be understating things a lot.

But the mental aspects, well, think of being hit by a wall of unfiltered,
unrelenting pleasure that engulfs your entire being, and that might be a good
starting point.  There is a very different sort of feeling when you're male and
when you're female, and those differences can't really be put into words.  The
results are the same, the ecstasy of giving one's body to another, the closeness
to that other person generates.  But the road that males and females take to get
to that point definitely are two separate paths, and for both to truly be
satisfied requires understanding.

Ah well, the important thing is that you're enjoying yourself, and that your
partner is also enjoying themselves.  In that respect, I know that Caroline is
enjoying all of the fun we've had for the last week, given how much in her mind
I've been.  And how much in my mind she's been rummaging about, looking for all
the fantasies I've had to try and make real.  And I suspect that while we're
stuck here from the snows, she's going to want to try out a few.

Better keep my strength and stamina up.  It's probably going to be a long and
wild few days ahead of me.

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Ryan walked into the living room, somewhat satisfied from what he saw.  Any and
all evidence of what happened last night was gone, everything within the room
looking perfectly normal.  No matter what, he knew he had to keep the place
pretty much clean, a habit his parents made sure he had.

"Caroline?" he said in the room, and her face appeared from one wall, smiling.

"I thought I'd be part of the house this morning," she said.  Ryan chuckled and
shook his head at her.

"Not like being a cabin, is it?" he teased, recalling her time as such when Gena
and Jim were enjoying their honeymoon.

She laughed, a tiny bit of dust coming from the rafters.  "No, it's not.  But
it's something I'd love to do again, given the chance."  He wandered into the
kitchen to get himself a snack, and Caroline's face disappeared from the living
room wall only to appear in the kitchen.

"So what are you thinking about doing today?" she asked, her face appearing on
the kitchen counter.  Ryan grinned, and bent down to kiss her lips, even if they
were made of granite like the rest of the counter.

"I haven't decided yet," he admitted.  "I'd like to spend part of the day just
resting, physically and mentally.  Last night was rather... intense, even if I
thought I was mentally ready for it."

He popped a grape into Caroline's mouth, and she chewed on it noisily.  "Mmm, so
you want to just kick back and relax instead?"

"Pretty much."  Ryan ate another grape, then gave Caroline another one as well,
amused at her being able to eat the way she was.  "Even though the storm's
lessened up a bit, we're still going to be stuck here for at least two or three
days, until I can get out there and clear the snow."

"Well, that won't be too difficult, would it?  You could be a snowplow and drive
through it, or take that sexy dragon shape and melt the snow with your flames,
or..."

Ryan laughed, cutting off her train of thought.  "I know, dear, trust me, I
know.  All of those ideas have flitted through my head already along with a few
others, and no doubt I'll probably end up taking one of them just to clear the
road enough for us to get back to the city again."

Caroline giggled a bit.  "So you want me to leave you be for now?"  She mock-
pouted, which given the granite gave her a rather odd expression.

"Just for a little while, dear.  I want to clear my head a bit, get my thoughts
back in order."

---

Ryan sat on the bed, eyes closed and mentally going through his meditation
routines.  A few years back, he had adopted them in response to the pressures at
work, and they were useful in channeling his frustrations and anger at life in
general.

But now, he was using those same meditations to help regain his mental balance,
as the last week with Caroline had seriously exposed him to a new world and a
new state of being.

**Who are you?**
**Ryan McKenzie**
**Not Caroline?**
**No**
**Not Ryaline?**
**No**
**Ryan?**
**Yes**
**Would you want to be Caroline?**
**Sometimes**
**Would you want to be Ryaline?**
**Sometimes**
**Why?**
**Because I love her, and I know she would want to be part of me**
**How do you know that?**
**I've been inside her mind as deeply as her body**
**And her?**
**She's been in my mind as well**
**Is that a problem?**
**No**

His meditation continued along those lines for a while, focusing on his sense of
self and his sense of individuality, recognizing that Caroline's thoughts and
desires were imprinted on him, that the transformations he's experienced had
changed him in ways he couldn't yet articulate.  He knew and recognized that his
life as he knew it previously was one he wouldn't be able to return to, and that
the ability to change his shape and share that with Caroline was something he'd
cherish for as long as he lived.

It took a while but eventually he felt his mind was finally settled and able to
face the world again.

---

Caroline watched Ryan from one wall, keeping an eye on him as he sat there on
the bed, unmoving.  She knew he meditated from his memories, but hadn't realized
just how deeply he could go and was surprised at just how quiet and still he
was.  If she didn't know better, she could have sworn he was in a statue form.

She spent the time letting herself spread throughout the entire cabin, not quite
able to touch everything but she made a valiant effort to.  Instead, she was
just the walls and framework, feeling the winds hitting one side of her and the
cold and snow against her.  Time tended to become rather slippery, and it was
with a bit of a start that she realized it was late afternoon when Ryan began to
stir.

She formed her face on the wall across from the bed.  "Feeling better, hun?" she
asked.

"Much better," he said.  "How about you?"

"Mmm, being most of the cabin is interesting, I didn't realize you had so much
space here."

"My parents did have it built with lots of room, just hadn't felt a need to show
you the spare bedrooms or the basement."

A large blob formed from the ceiling and fell to the floor.  It splattered when
it hit, then slowly pulled back together and reformed into Caroline, giving Ryan
a warm kiss.  "Mmm, well, it's not like we've got a party going on here with
others."

"No, we don't."  He hugged her warmly, then pulled her onto the bed with him
where they cuddled together for a while.  Ryan savored the feel of her body as
herself against his own, an anchor that helped him mentally.

---

The clock said it was early in the evening, and Caroline wandered into the
living room.  There, she saw Ryan sitting on the couch, but it wasn't quite
Ryan.  Instead, he had altered himself into a stylized sort of robotic form,
still human looking but with silver skin that had electronic traces that glowed
a soft turquoise.  He looked up, and his eyes were just a single sort of slit
that glowed softly an amber glow.

"Hello, hun," he said in a synthesized voice.  "Thought we might try something
really different tonight."

Caroline giggled, and walked over to him.  "Going with the electronic android
look?  Robot sex?"

Ryan laughed.  "You could call it that, yes.  Enjoy some interfacing with you
and see what sort of virtual experiences we can create."

Caroline winked, and her form began to alter.  Her skin turned silvery as fine
circuits began to crisscross her body.  Bones and muscles became a metal
framework within her, as cables and circuits formed in place of flesh and blood.
Even her hair became silver and retracted into her skull, while her eyes became
similar to Ryan's, only glowing a soft green.

She walked over to him, the soft whir of servos audible clearly to them both as
she gave him a warm, loving kiss.  "Oh, this feels so strange," she said in an
electronic voice.  "Like I can see everything in different ways."

"It's very different, your mind's a massive computer now, and your senses can
pick up radio, television, anything that's broadcasting.  Not to mention seeing
in infrared, ultraviolet, even in x-rays or higher."  Ryan smiled and peered at
Caroline, taking in her gynoid form in all the various ways.

"Mmm, well, I know I what I want to do now, and that's have fun with you seeing
how meshed we can become."  With that, she pressed herself against him, a soft
humming coming from her form.

Ryan's body responded to that humming, as an extension formed out of his groin.
A solid rod with a connector at the tip, it unerringly went towards Caroline,
who formed a matching interface for it to attach into.  It locked in place, and
they both stiffened as their minds suddenly felt the onrush of each other's
thoughts, blending together and becoming one single operational mind with one
basic desire, to explore and enjoy the pleasures that their explorations bring.

Their bodies began to slowly transform, arms and legs sliding about as they
changed.  The interface disappeared from sight as their torsos slid around and
took new configurations, electronic sounds of pleasure coming from their new
body.  Soon, a spider-like entity stood in the room, any definition of gender or
even human-like appearance having disappeared.  It peered at the router, then a
part of it stretched outwards, becoming a flexible cable as it attached itself
into the router.

Within, Ryan and Caroline both felt themselves being pulled through that
connection, and they let themselves go, entering a virtual universe of lights
and movement, a lattice network that spread outwards in every direction.  Both
experienced what could only be called a virtual orgasm as they moaned, that
virtual universe filling their minds and they proceeded to skip and fly through
their new world.

The electronic entity that was their physical form was their anchor, as
everything they experienced, saw and felt was downloaded and recorded.  Another
cord formed, attaching itself into an electrical outlet, and they remained this
way for the entire night and well into Sunday, being one with the 'Net.

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