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So the bad news was that one person couldn’t sing Good Vibrations all on her own. I tried joining in when the multi-part harmonies started up, but honestly I wasn’t any good as a singer even with my voice being changed by a possibly-magical fursuit. Vee and I laughed it off, and we completed the rest of the drive in comfortable silence, only broken by a barely-audible buzzing.
And that was the good news: just how comfortable it was to be Vicky, in oh so many ways. It wasn’t just the vibrators, though those did scratch a deeply-felt itch. It wasn’t just the fact that Vicky’s body itself—myself—was so physically comfortable, so soft and well padded that I felt like I could go to sleep this way.
What it came down to, in a word, was being self-conscious. Vicky wasn’t. Vicky didn’t know anyone here, didn’t have any prior history (that I knew of: apparently someone had thrown the suit in a dumpster but that wasn’t my problem), didn’t have any of those silly human hangups that John had. She could, which meant I could, just walk out into the con and enjoy myself.
And that was what I did: after dealing with parking the car in the garage beneath the convention, I walked up the stairs and into the main hall like I owned the place.
“Where to first, Vicky?” said the little voice in my head.
I spoke back, also in my head, and glad Vee had taught me to speak without letting the fursuit lips move. “Let’s just tour the whole place and see what happens. Sound good?”
“No need to ask me whether it sounds good or not, Owner. I’m just a costume! I’ll go along with anything you want.”
It still rang a little hollow to hear her say that, considering everything, but I didn’t really mind. Whether or not I really believed Vee when she talked about herself, I didn’t feel any need to pry further. It clearly didn’t matter, and wouldn’t affect my enjoyment of today.
So I set off, heels clicking along the floor as I started taking a look at the environment—and as the environment started taking a look at me.
It took about five minutes for someone to ask me to pose for a picture, and of course I happily obliged, especially since she gave me such nice compliments about my figure and my costume. “The craftsmanship is amazing!” she said, whoever she was. “The way its mouth moves when you talk looks so natural! Who’d you get it from?”
I laughed, and said, “Oh, a lady never tells.”
It was a pretty meaningless thing to say, but it was enough to deflect the question. “All right,” she said. “Then can you at least tell me your Twitter or something, so I can tag you when I post this?”
“Tell you what,” I said, leaning down to her height. “How about you post it, and I’ll find you with my account—” I poked a finger at her for emphasis “—and then you can tag me.”
“Sure, whatever works for you. Thanks again!”
I walked away, then frowned when I heard a little grumble from inside my head. “Something wrong?” I said to myself.
“What? No, nothing!” Vee sounded surprised. “Just keep enjoying yourself, Owner!”
I definitely did that. I got to attend some cool panels, spent some time at a room filled with tabletop games, another solid half hour playing fighting games, and had a great time flirting it up wherever I went.
There were plenty of opportunities to flirt, since people kept asking me for pictures every few minutes. It made sense—obviously a fursuit at a convention was in no way a novelty, but with one as sleek and well made as me, people were bound to be interested. And for my part, I made sure to be just as interested in them, acting charming and feisty and not quite suggestive enough to make anyone uncomfortable.
I would have expected it to get old after a while, but it didn’t! I got to pose with so many other interesting suits, and so many fascinating people, and even one buff man who tried to lift me for a photo—he did not quite manage it. I asked, quite shocked, if he was implying something about my weight, and we all laughed.
The longer it went on, though, the more I got the sense that the only one who wasn’t having fun was Vee. She kept making little noises of discontent from time to time, and after a while I was getting tired of it. I leaned against a wall, taking a break from activities for a few minutes, and asked inside my head: “Vee, what’s wrong?”
“Didn’t I tell you already, Owner? Nothing’s wrong!” She laughed an unconvincing laugh.
“I am your owner. So you have to tell me.”
“Well, um….”
Vee didn’t talk for a while, but I got the sense that she was composing her thoughts, rather than avoiding the question. I took the time to people-watch.
“It’s stupid,” she finally said.
“Tell me anyway.”
“I just….” She sighed. “I get uncomfortable. All the people who keep asking for pictures, they keep talking about how well I was made, and asking who made me, and….”
“Well, someone did make you, right? You said you were made.”
“It’s… not something I want to get into.”
“Why is that?” A possibility occurred to me. “Was the person who made you the same person who threw you out?”
Vee didn’t answer. This silence definitely sounded like she was avoiding the question.
“Hey, look,” I said, raising my hands in a sort of surrender. “If you don’t want to talk about it, if you wanna just pretend you came from nowhere and magically appeared in a dumpster, I’m fine with that. I mean, I’m playing pretend right now, aren’t I?” Still no response, so I continued. “I’m just saying, sooner or later we all have to stop pretending—”
My body moved on its own, walking swiftly along the corridor and into a nearby single-person bathroom, then locking the door behind me. It had been hours since Vee had taken over, and I was so startled I didn’t struggle or even speak for a few seconds. Eventually, once I found my voice, I said, “The hell was that?”
“Oh, uh, just….” Vee laughed nervously. “I just realized you haven’t taken care of yourself for a while, Owner! And after you’re done in here, you should probably get something to eat. You won’t even need to take me off to chew!”
That was definitely not why she forced me in here—but at the same time, she had a point. Once again, I decided not to pry.
“All right,” I said, and walked over to the toilet. “Let me just….”
I pushed my dress aside, revealing the zipper that had been hidden all day. Unlike this morning, when Vee had been so reluctant to let me even touch the tab, she offered no resistance now. I didn’t abuse the privilege either, only opening up enough to reach inside and pull my naked member out.
It didn’t take long to do my business, and then it was time to put my dick back. That was the intention when I grabbed it, but then I took a look in the room’s mirror.
Vicky stared back at me, the picture of feminine elegance in a foxy coating—except for the penis, and also the weird gap in her front, showing the human male body inside. I frowned, and zipped the zipper down to the edge so that no gap was visible around my dick. It looked so out of place, like an uncannily realistic strap-on, and it was hard to believe it was mine.
In a way, it wasn’t. If I was Vicky, then this belonged to… someone else.
Why not have a little fun with him?
I took hold and started stroking.
Vee, as if sensing my thoughts, turned on a mild vibration in the grabbing hand at the same moment. “Oh, yes,” I murmured, stroking up and down the shaft. It hardened and lengthened immediately. “Oh, this is good—”
“Let me do it, Owner,” said the voice in my head. “I mean, it’s never as much fun on your own, right?”
Vee started guiding my hand, and before long I was just letting her do all the work, and she was right—this was better. Doing it to yourself lacked any sense of unpredictability or surprise, but this felt like something that I wasn’t doing to myself—I was giving a handjob to someone else, and yet at the same time it also felt like my girlfriend was giving a handjob to me.
Except in this case my girlfriend was a costume with velvet-soft vibrating hands, and it felt so good. “Vee,” I gasped, “keep going just like that—I’m about to—”
Which was exactly when my hand let go. The voice inside my head gasped, suddenly sounding genuinely scandalized. “Vicky, you naughty girl! What are you doing, toying with that poor man?”
I probably would have been shocked into stillness even if Vee wasn’t holding me. My hand hovered inches away from its target, still buzzing to taunt me. I couldn’t reach it even if I pushed my hips forward.
“And in a public place, no less? You should really put him back right now!”
At this point it wasn’t even clear whether I was moving on my own or not. As the buzzing in my hand stopped, I gently took my dick—which was, if anything, harder and more sensitive than it had been before—and returned it inside the suit. Then I sealed it behind the zipper, and the dress covered that.
The Vicky in the mirror was panting. Distantly I wondered why: it wasn’t like anyone had been pleasuring her. “Why did you do that,” I groaned.
“Do what?” Her voice was sweeter now. “I’m the voice in your head. You’re the one who did it, Vicky.”
I could still feel my staff at full mast, pressed against my belly by the suit’s padding, but it didn’t show outwardly at all. Vicky in the mirror took a deep breath, then was herself again, washing and drying her hands. It took a bit more time than a human would need because of the fur.
This woman—if she was a woman—was driving me crazy. The worst part was, I think I was liking it.
Once I’d washed my hands, I left and made my way downstairs, and enjoyed an overpriced hamburger meal from a stall that had set up in the main hall. Vee was right—I could eat it through the mask, and to my surprise I was dextrous enough with my fursuited face that I didn’t even make a mess. It was surprisingly easy to toy with the idea of living in the fursuit full-time.
Obviously, that wasn’t a real option. But it was so nice to imagine, and the daydream could continue until the end of the convention, at least. And I had more of the convention to explore.
“Where are you headed now, Owner?” Vee asked, as I threw away my trash and got walking again.
“The vendor hall,” I said to myself.
“Oh.” There was that note of discomfort again. “Really?”
“Is there a problem, Vee?”
“I mean, you know how vendor halls are! You just walk around and it’s a bunch of body pillows and overpriced bookmarks, and you don’t end up buying anything.” She laughed.
“Well, I like looking around,” I said, a little more cross now, “and if I’m the owner then what I say goes, right?”
She took a few seconds to respond. “Yes, Owner,” she finally said.
“Good. I mean, you’re supposed to just be the voice in my head, aren’t you?”
No answer this time. I smirked and set off.
I—that was to say, John—always had enjoyed the vendor hall, as a matter of fact. And despite what Vee said, I usually did end up buying a few small things, even if it was just what I could carry: it was nice to support small, independent creators. This time, though, I had a purse, and it would be nice to be able to carry more than usual.
I got to buying. A print here, a keychain there, and yes, a few bookmarks, even if they were a little overpriced. I didn’t buy any body pillows, though I did see many, from cartoon demons to cartoon ponies. In any case, I had a pretty respectable haul before long, all tucked away in my purse.
And of course, it was more of the same as I walked around: people kept stopping me for pictures, and the posing still didn’t get old! Better yet, the voice in my head had managed to stop expressing her discomfort every time.
However, Vee was still leading me around a bit. It was hard to notice at first—just little suggestions of stalls to visit, or art to look at, or oh my god do you see that crotch shot on the body pillow, don’t children come to these conventions? But after a while I noticed that all the nudges were happening around a certain part of the vendor hall. Every time I got close, I was getting subtly rebuffed.
“Vee,” I said eventually, in the middle of posing for a picture, “I feel like you’re not being honest with me again.” I felt a little surge of pride about how the suit’s lips didn’t move.
“What do you mean, Owner?”
It was kind of funny, how much control a person—or entity, or whatever—could exert over you while still calling you ‘Owner’ half the time. “If I walk straight ahead,” I said, “will you stop me?”
“Owner, I would never stop you from doing something you truly wanted to do—”
“That is a straight up lie and we both know it.”
The photo op finished. I spoke up, graciously accepting thanks for having posed so nicely.
“Look,” I continued. “This game you’ve been playing with me, it’s been fun. Very fun. When you wouldn’t let me….” I trailed off, feeling a sort of haze of arousal in my chest that made it hard to talk. The orgasm denial had been very appealing, and frankly seemed like a fun thing to do once I got back home… I shook myself before I could fantasize too hard. “But this is different. This is less, like, sexy controlling, or pushing me out of my comfort zone controlling like this morning… and more just, like, weird messed up controlling.”
The reply was surprisingly heated. “What if I’m controlling you for your own good, Vicky?”
I grimaced. “Okay. I don’t know who taught you that was a reasonable excuse for controlling another human person, but that is not okay.”
A pause. Then, as if she was actually considering it: “Really?”
“Of course really! How could it not—”
My legs moved on their own again, turning tail and striding away from the vendors, away from the crowds. “Vee,” I hissed, “this is exactly what I’m talking about. Stop it right now.”
“I’m sorry, Owner.”
“I mean it!”
“I’m really sorry, Owner.” My body broke into a run. “I—we—you need to get away right now. Right now, okay? There isn’t any time to explain.”
I didn’t retort right away, because Vee’s mercurial mood had shifted again, and this time to panic. Whatever we were running from, it clearly terrified her.
Vee had already said she could make me fast, and it showed. It didn’t take long before we were out of the crowds, entirely out of the space designated as the vendor hall. Right now we were still on the same floor, but in an unused corner and behind a structural pillar.
“All right,” I said, panting even though I had barely exerted myself. “We’re alone. There is definitely, absolutely time to explain, so I would really like it if you would do that?”
But Vee just kept repeating herself. “I’m sorry, I’m really sorry, this was stupid, I was stupid, I’m sorry, I’m sorry—”
“Vee, calm down. Calm down.” Unsure what to do, I reached back and stroked my own head. “What’s going on?”
“Now why did you run off for?”
The voice wasn’t mine or Vee’s. It was female, scolding, and came from behind me. “Oh no,” Vee whispered.
“What is it?” I asked, turning around.